Stuff from my old blog

Here is the rest of the stuff from my old blog at Open Diary.... enjoy lolBTW the addy for it is http://lattebitch.modblog.com/?gourl=http://www.opendiary.com/entrylist.asp?authorcode=D318971I left that off the last post by accident.A Year Ago..... - 11/4/2004While I'm currently procrastinating and trying to avoid writing essays which are horribly boring on horribly convoluted topics my mind has been wandering....

Wandering back to a year ago, and it shocked me and jolted me to realize how much I have changed. I guess I hadn't noticed because everything around me has been changing too.

A year ago today I would have been waiting to sit my final HSC exam. I would have been so highly strung... stressed out. Basically I was a little bit crazy last year. Living in a small town, in such a small world, the HSC was this absolutely massive hurdle/focus in my life. The HSC was such a mindset... during my HSC year I thought of nothing except the HSC, and where I was going to go to uni. In fact, I can only remember scraps of images from the HSC near the end... it's such a blur, or perhaps I have blocked it out.

When it finished, I didn't know what to do with myself. I was lost. It was my focus, and I was in limbo... where was I going to uni, what marks was I going to get?

Sometimes I wish I had kept a journal of my HSC year, just so I could remember who I was back then.

The past year (in fact, the past 2 years) have probably been the years most full of change and turbulence in my time. Reflecting on where I was last year, I can see how much I have changed. It's scary sometimes, taking a look inside yourself. Sometimes I look at my friends and think "you have changed"... but I have changed too... sometimes the change is good, sometimes it's bad....

All this talk about change, anyone would think I had done an Area of Study in Advanced English on it!!!

The amount I have learned in the past year has been quite astonishing... not really the stuff I have learned at uni, but I have seen how people outside my small town live their lives.... I learnt my way around Sydney... I learnt what real rich people were like... I learnt that UAIs certainly don't indicate how smart someone is.... I learnt about higher culture than what I was accustomed to.... I learnt that I can stand on my own two feet, and be just fine.... I learnt what real work was, and that a lot of people don't know the meaning of real work.

Anyway, I'd better go to bed... this is probably too much deep thought tonight for my little tired head.... I have to save my brainpower for the essays... that don't appear to be getting done while I am writing this!

-------------------- -------------------- -------------------- ---------------11/4/04 - 11/4/2004ive come so far

it seems so long

i miss you all

in my old world

in this city

i am invisible

my friends

come and go

like cars on busy roads

in between

two worlds

in between

two lives

one heart

torn apart

by missing things

no matter what world

i am in

i crave love

someone to hold me

someone to care

someone who

doesnt judge me

by my shell

i want your kiss

your soft caress

someone just to

be there

i feel like a starbucks cup

bouncing along the gutter

the wind pushing me along

me just watching

without being watched

-------------------- -------------------- -------------------- ---------------I'm addicted to your online journal.I found it off the BoredofStudies website and i keep checking back about once a week to read your new entries..Keep up the good work and goodluck with uni!-------------------- -------------------- -------------------- ---------------Back Home... but am I? - 11/24/2004I've been back home in Albury for a week now... but am I home? It may sound stupid, but in some ways I feel out of place here now. I haven't set foot here for 5 months, and nothing really has changed except that some of my old friends have just grown more distant and there are a couple of new chain stores like kathmandu and vodaphone here now.

It's good to see my family again obviously. It's good to catch up with people. But I am bored already. And it seems as though my parents think I am staying back here for my whole 4 month holiday. And I really don't want to do that. I already feel somewhat trapped and stiffled... maybe it's because I'm used to having the freedom to do whatever I want when I am in Sydney.... financial freedom, personal freedom and not being denied a social life because of my job like I am here.... I know that I will be working nearly every Friday and Saturday nite until I go back to Sydney... no wonder friends have drifted away, I didn't even see many of them last time I was back in town except from the other side of the counter at my parent's shop.

I feel isolated here now... all I can do to relate with most people is talk about stuff that happened in the past because I can tell that they don't want to hear me rave on about people they don't even know in Sydney.... at least when they tell me what they have been up to I know the people that they are referring to.

Argh I love living in Sydney, and I acknowledge the inert country-girl-ness in my heart from my upbringing here, but sometimes I just feel caught in between the two. I am never at home if that makes sense. When I am in Sydney, Albury is home. When I am in Albury. Sydney is home.

Sitting on the bus on the way home I felt a feeling of exhileration and freedom driving through the countryside... out of the crowded city, in to the vast grassy farms, through forests of gumtrees... spaces extending as far as the eye can see. When we were driving in to Albury I was excited as I saw the familiar sights..... but despite all the physical space I have around me here (unlike my pokey apartment in Sydney) I feel closed in sometimes. No matter what I do, I can't act "changed" here... I come back and I fall back in to being the same person that I always was here. The other day I got in the car (which incidently is new and very nice to drive, especially after being carless in Sydney) and drove around.... I had this sudden desire just to drive and drive..... go out on a country road and drive.... and I have no idea why. I didn't, because I was roped in to picking my sister up from dance class at a certain time, but I wonder where I would have driven and how far I would have gone before I felt like turning back.....

Maybe I will feel more "at home" again soon.... but maybe I don't want to feel at home. I think I want adventure, excitement, freedom.... all things that Albury is not going to offer me any time soon. I think I want to get away.... I have been feeling really flighty lately.

PS. Leave notes on my diary if you read! I like to know that sometimes people actually read this stuff!!

-------------------- -------------------- -------------------- ---------------lol... of course ppl read the entrys of others... i kno i do... but ne who, things will feel like that for a while, once you get used to everything again, youll feel like ur at home again... i kno thats how i felt when i went back to my home after being away for almost a yr. [down to earth_21]-------------------- -------------------- -------------------- ---------------Breakaway - 11/25/2004I find this really scary, but a poppy song that my sister has on the computer sums up how I am feeling right now.... and how I was feeling twelve months ago... Kelly clarkson's Breakway.... YES scary I know.... Kelly Clarkson.... but it so fits how I feel when I end up back home!

Grew up in a small town And when the rain would fall down I'd just stare out my window Dreamin' of what could be And if I'd end up happy I would pray Trying hard to reach out But, when I tried to speak out Felt like no one could hear me Wanted to belong here But something felt so wrong here So I'd pray I could break away I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change And break away Out of the darkness and into the sun But, I won't forget all the ones that I love I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change And break away Wanna feel the warm breeze Sleep under a palm tree Feel the rush of the ocean Get onboard a fast train Travel on a jetplane, far away And break away I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change And break away Out of the darkness and into the sun I won't forget all the ones that I love I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change And break away Buildings with a hundred floors Swinging round revolving doors Maybe I don't know where they'll take me But, gotta keep moving on, moving on Fly away, break away I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye, gotta Take a risk, take a chance, make a change And break away Out of the darkness and into the sun But, I won't forget of the place I come from I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change And break away Breakaway Breakaway

I'm scared that a pop song sums up my attitude at the moment....

-------------------- -------------------- -------------------- ---------------Being Lazy - 12/7/2004I've been so lazy lately... in Sydney I am always busy, here there isn't so much to keep me busy.... so I get lazy, and bum around the house in my pyjamas. Plus working horrible hours doesn't help.

I have to go to school next week and get an award... for the best pass in History in the HSC last year (at our school).... it will be weird, going back to school! Secretly it has reminded me about how annoyed I was to miss out on getting the best pass in the HSC award by 0.1 of a UAI point.... but it's going to be interesting next week anyway, because I will get to catch up with teachers and some of the people from my year etc.

Ladidah it's almost xmas. Xmas and New Year for me means working lots and lots and lots and lots. Then after Xmas and New Year I might try and do some work experience for journo at the local paper and radio station or something. Work experience (unpaid work) is something that I hate having to do!!!!! Show me the money I say!

We have a challenge going on at our house.... who can cook dinner for the five of us for the cheapest. Tomorrow is my turn to cook. The food has to be "nice' though- something that you would want to eat. The others have been hopeless... tomorrow I will show them what being cheap and stingy means. Uni students know the meaning of thrift!!

Anyway, there isn't much else to say. I haven't done much.... except listen to my sister prattle on about Beanie Kids, which she has recently started collecting profusely.

Nite all.... and may the new year come quickly so I can find something exciting and interesting to do with myself after my parents untie me from our business for a while (not that I'm really complaining... I need the money!).

-------------------- -------------------- -------------------- ---------------Tis the season to be silly - 12/19/2004Well, I haven't been up to that much. Working a bit (from Tuesday I will be working an absolute shitload!!!)....

Went out last night with some friends and it was a good night. There were tons of people from my year at school out so it was good to catch up with some, and realize that some were now too self absorbed to even notice you :) But we had fun!

My sister got her Christmas present early.... it is a little kitten! She has been asking for one for ages. Omigod he is soooooooooo cute! He was so timid at first, but we have had him for almost a week now and he has settled right in. He always falls asleep on your lap if you sit on the sofa, and he is so playful.... the other day he was chasing a fly around the house for ages, it was hilarious! He is a browny color, I'm not sure what breed, I think he is like a burmese cross or something. My sister wanted to give him a boring name, but I said why don't we call him Latte, because he is kinda coffee colored and he looks a bit classy.... when he gets older I think he will be a bit snobby.... and she loved it, so did mum, so he is called Latte! When we took him to the vets for his vaccination they loved the name we had picked!

I had to go back to school on Thursday to presentation day.... to get some award for the best mark in history in the HSC last year. It was so boring and it felt kind of awkward to be back.... it was so familiar but awkward, and it was like taking a step back in time. Sometimes coming back home feels like taking backwards steps because everything here is so much the same, and just so unchanging.... plus I move from being independent to being "mothered" again and sometimes it can be stifling.

But basically that has been all the excitement in our house, besides getting organized for xmas, and besides catching up with lots of people from school. I probably won't write in here again before xmas, so to everyone out there have a safe and happy christmas (don't drink too much, but don't drink too little!) and a wonderful start to 2005.... who knows what excitement, dramas, loves and changes the new year might bring for all of us in our lives.... oh and broken resolutions!

-------------------- -------------------- -------------------- ---------------happy new years..i love the poem you wrote..i think sometimes we all kinda feel like that, being torn in two and not knowing why and how it fix it..maybe its a case of always greener?i know its so cliched but i always try to see some sunshine no matter how shitty it all might seem, because when you lose the good, you realise it was never shitty in the first place..merry christmas!!-------------------- -------------------- -------------------- ---------------She Works Hard for the Money...... - 12/29/2004Argh I'm halfway through my 70 hour a week fortnight of marathon working in order to earn money for uni next year.... so tired, but oh well. Money makes the world go around.

However I have nothing to complain about really. Complaining about anything would seem selfish and trite in light of the tragedy in Asia (the tsunami/earthquake). It's just horrible and my heart sinks every time I read more and more about it. I would like to extend my sympathies to anyone affected by it in any way.

It makes me wonder if maybe we shouldn't be worrying about things like the war on terror and OBL (osama) when mother nature can inflict far more damage upon us. Maybe we should be spending our time more on changing our lifestyles so that they have less impact on the environment, and making humanity's relationship with the natural world a more harmonious one.

Christmas was good (my one day off work this week).... it was a nice relaxed day with my family... we still have the leftovers though, my mum doesn't understand the word "excessive".

I hope you all had a good xmas.

I wish everyone the best in the New Year. May the world be a more peaceful place and may you have every happiness you deserve.

-------------------- -------------------- -------------------- ---------------Resolutions - 12/31/2004I thought I had better put down some goals for this year in here..... even though it is likely I will break them.

My goals for 2005 are as follows:

-get healthier-do lots of journalism writing for publications/work experience-have a lot of fun-get overseas for a while-get a distinction average at uni this year-get a fun/good PT job in Syd-meet new people-go out more-save more of my money (yeah the last two don't really work together that well)-Maybe find some romance lol

At the end of 2005 I really should give myself a score as to how I achieved these outcomes (kinda a grade based on keeping my resolutions) lol.....

Have a happy New years people, party hard tonight... think of me at work tonight! But at least I will be making some more moolah to finance these resolutions! And to donate some of my money to the tsunami relief fund.

-------------------- -------------------- -------------------- ---------------Goodluck with your resolutions! I haven't made any this year. Infact, I don't know that I've made any ever. I guess it'd be interesting to see how wellI kept them if i did make them! [i.wanna.be.sedated]-------------------- -------------------- -------------------- ---------------Happy belated New Year from a fellow aussie :) [Sapphire's Gaze]-------------------- -------------------- -------------------- ---------------Incredibles, New Zealand and driving around - 1/10/2005Well, today I went and saw the Incredibles with my friend. Omigod it was so cute. I loved the little fashion designer and the little boy on the trike. Very cute movie lol.

Guess what.... I'm going to New Zealand! I can't wait to get away.... I crave the feeling of escaping.... the wind in my hair, an ocean breeze, being away from responsibility and being whoever I feel like. I have been craving it for a while.... from the congestedness of Sydney, from home where I don't have much independence or freedom.... I have just been craving escaping and being free for a few weeks and hopefully this trip should satiate my desire! I have been trying to replicate this feeling of getting away by driving my car fast along the bush highways with the stereo up loud but it just isn't good enough. I'm really excited, I can't wait to go. I'm going on my own, but hey I moved to Sydney all by myself so it doesn't really faze me at all.

Today I walked up a big hill because I am trying to get a bit fitter for my NZ trek. It was very steep. But it was a good feeling to be out amongst the bush where you can't hear cars or anything like that.... just the animals (aka bugs and birds).... unfortunately there was no wind rustling the trees, it was really hot lol.... Sometimes I forget how small this place is.... I mean, I walked from my house, up a hill and back, and it only took me an hour to do the whole thing and I was in bushland lol........ from the hill I could see the edges of the twin cities and I was thinking that in comparison to the rest of the world this place is such a fishbowl... I love it in some ways but I couldn't stand to be stuck here like some people are... there is so much more out there.

I have a toothache and I hope it's nothing serious because you have to book a dentist appointment two months ahead here it's crazy... and I'm deadly serious, I'm not exaggerating. Maybe I should have studied dentistry lol I could have made a fortune here! But hey, ya gotta follow your passions right?

-------------------- -------------------- -------------------- ---------------In NEW ZEALAND! - 1/28/2005I'm in New Zealand.... I've been here for a couple of days now and I'm having a good time. I was in Auckland for a few days and now I am in the Bay of Islands.

It's really nice here, the scenery is quite divine. I'm going sailing and snorkelling tomorrow, and if we see dolphins we can swim with them!

I'm travelling by myself which I have found to be a good experience so far... you meet lots of interesting people that I don't think I would have taken the time to talk to if I was travelling with friends.

So yeah, I will type more of the details later but I am having fun!!! Yay!!!

Spending too much money though as always....

-------------------- -------------------- -------------------- ---------------Wow, it must be beautiful in New Zealand! I want to travel to so many places, but I'm only 18 so I'm sure I will sometimes in my future! Take care -Michelle- [thinking1through10]-------------------- -------------------- -------------------- ---------------Back from NZ... but I wish I wasn't... - 2/20/2005Well, I'm back from New Zealand. I had such an awesome time... I did lots of great things like white water rafting, caving, underground tubing, jetboating, sailing, quad biking... I saw so much stunning scenery.... met so many amazing and interesting people... had so much fun and felt so free.

Now I am back in Sydney... and I don't really want to be. When I finished my trip in NZ I just wanted to pack up my bags and travel around the world. Now that I have been home for a week and already have bullshit to put up with from flatmates I really really don't want to be here and just feel like travelling.

I'm job hunting... waiting for people to call me back... I hate waiting.

Two of my flatmates are the same as from last year and I get along with them well, however I have a new, very loud, alcoholic American "frat boy" as my new flatmate... last night him and his friends came in at 4.30am, were extremely loud and disrespectful and smoked pot inside our very small apartment when you are not allowed to smoke anything inside, let alone pot. They were lucky they didn't set off the fire alarm and wake up everyone in the whole building. So now I have this to deal with.... when I am working and going to uni this is going to be a real problem so I am going to have to be a bitch and tell them not to do it.... and if they continue to do it, I will have to report them to the housing service. I'm so sick of there always being dramas.... I am so sick of always having one flatmate who is rude and disrespectful.

I'm not even motivated to go back to uni this year.... I don't think my holiday refreshed me for the new year like I thought it would, I think it showed me what I truly wanted to be doing instead of what I am doing now. But I am so tied down here because of my lease and uni etc so I don't really have a choice but to keep plodding along with what I am doing.... and putting up with bullshit along the way. Plus there is the financial issue with travel... but I would seriously be happy just to travel around, working in various places etc... not being tied down.

Maybe I should have taken a year off before uni and travelled... but finances were the limiting factor once again anyway.

Plus I have done basically no work experience for journo which makes my degree fairly useless.... it's just so hard to fit unpaid work in amongst paid work and classes etc

I'm listening to Sarah Blasko's "The Overture and the Underscore"

"Don't you ever wish for just one thing that you might never see?

Don't you ever wish for just one thing that you might never know?"

Maybe I'm just eager to see new things all the time and am not happy to be here doing basically the same thing I did last year... maybe I am looking for adventure all the time and am just not happy with the mundane anymore? Maybe I'm just flighty and indecisive at the moment and don't know what I want. Sometimes I'm homesick but I don't want to go home.... sometimes I'm bored but I have heaps of things I need to do.... I don't know lately, I just don't know!

Plus I'm sick of being overlooked by guys... maybe I should go on a massive fitness kick.... but in a way that's just not me and I doubt it would make me any happier (maybe more attractive)... but why bother? Plus I don't have the money for gym and dance lessons at the moment... and I want to save to go overseas.

Basically I'm just mixed up at the moment.... sick of dealing with the same old bullshit.... maybe when uni starts and I find a new job things will improve.

-------------------- -------------------- -------------------- ---------------Just wanted to say hi, keep in touch ok? And, have fun in New Zealand! -Michelle- [thinking1through10]-------------------- -------------------- -------------------- ---------------damn, I meant have fun in Sydney :) [thinking1through10]-------------------- -------------------- -------------------- ---------------O Week - 2/26/2005Well, this week was O week and I have been having fun.... but not finding employment as quickly as I hoped. I have had lots of interviews, but everyone is going to call me next week apparently so I'm a bit worried. It's never normally taken so long for me to find work. Maybe I am being too fussy? Or paranoid? All I can say is that I hope the phone starts to ring soon!

I have been out every night since Tuesday, so I am having a quiet Saturday night in before tropfest tomorrow.... I love tropfest, I can't wait it should be awesome fun. This week I've been out to pizza nights, beach parties (lol... it wasn't at the beach, we just all dressed as if it was), and just out and about basically. It's been good fun, and I remember why it is fun not to have a job.... but it won't be fun when I run out of money.

Argh... there is a guy who I like but I can't get up any courage to sort of pursue him and I don't think he is interested in being more than just friends.... I can't read the signs at all.....I'm almost 20 and never been kissed, how tragic eh?

Anyway, I'm back to uni on Monday (which should be interesting after 4 months of mental inactivity)... it will be good to catch up with some people. It's been soooooooo long!!!

Well, that's all the stories that I really have to tell....

-------------------- -------------------- -------------------- ---------------oooooooooooooo...pur sue that dood!! you have to get some smooching in here soon girl!!jenn [MistresOfTheNight]-------------------- -------------------- -------------------- ---------------So.... about how crappy Sydney is.... - 3/3/2005

I've had one of my trademark changes of mind.... I love being back in Sydney, and I really don't mind being back at uni!

Things like Tropfest and the Mardi Gras coming up on Sat have reminded me why I love Sydney and why I moved here. Plus I have been reunited with my lost uni friends who I hadn't seen for four months and we have some great ideas for things to do this semester which should make it fun and interesting. Maybe I shall reveal our plans to you at a later stage, but at the moment it is all highly classified information.

I also have found a job.... a cashier at an electrical goods store... not exactly thrilling, but it should pay the rent. I was getting depressed at not finding a job so I am pleased to have secured one now. I am still looking for a second job to supplement my income.... I need to save for my "Euro Fund" for exchange next year... I am really looking forward to that and have decided that I am going to work hard towards that goal.

On the uni/study front.... going back to uni hasn't been too horrific and I am planning on being more studious this semester, especially since my subjects are graded now. I am also planning to do more journalist type work so I actually get stuff published so I actually start to build a portfolio. The only problem is time.... time spent doing unpaid journalism work is time that I am not working to earn money for the Euro Fund.... and it is also time that I am not doing my readings so that I can get good grades in my subjects.... I guess I need to get my priorities sorted out, and strike some sort of balance....

As for my subjects this semester I am doing a media law subject that should be interesting, a subject on writing feature articles for print which I think I will really enjoy.... and a terrible third year compulsory subject that seems dull, unimportant and an excessive amount of work. So I think the score is 2/3, which is ok I guess, it could be worse.

On the boy front, it is time to reveal my sad tale of unrequited backpacker romance.... I met this guy on the tour in NZ who I really fell for.... things seemed like they were heading down that path but it never got very far.... when we were back in Sydney things sort of carried on the same way.... I couldn't never get up the courage to ask the vital questions to move things along a bit, and he was quite shy too, but we could have great conversations.... but it was going to be doomed anyway, because he flew out of Sydney to his home country, and that is the end of the story I guess :(

I'm feeling a bit like Bridget Jones lately.... which is kind of tragic because I am no where near being middle aged... and it will hopefully be quite some time before I have to be concerned about dying alone as a spinster..... I don't want to start appearing so desperate at this stage in my life so I really should stop empathizing with Bridget Jones.....

In our journo class today our tutor was talking about how Blogs are a form of journalism and we could show them to potential employers.... I don't know if I would want a potential employer reading my blog which I usually only write in when I am somewhat melancholy or feeling emotionally torn.... I don't think it would leave a very good impression! Plus I tend to get very slack with my grammer, spelling and punctuation in here.... this certainly isn't SMH style guide type writing!

Anywa y, I should go to bed...

-------------------- -------------------- -------------------- ---------------Seduction Style Quiz - 3/4/2005

Someone sent me this quiz:

http://www.blogger.com/">http://lattebitch.modblog.com/?gourl=http://www.blogthings.com/seducerquiz/

Apparentl y my "seduction style" is The Coquette

"You are a pro at playing the age old game of hard to get.
Your flirting style runs hot and cold, giving just enough to keep them chasing you.
Independent and self-sufficient, you don't need any one person to make you compelte.
And that independence is exactly what makes people pursue you."

Well, it sounds like me, except for the fact that I haven't actually managed to seduce anyone yet....

Missy Higgins is on the MTV Music Awards.... I love her stuff, it's so raw, especially live.

Gotta go to work tomorrow.... not really looking forward to it. I have some financial issues also at the moment, I need to find a second job soon. Grrrr!!! I so want to save so I can go to Europe! ARGH!

-------------------- -------------------- -------------------- ---------------Mardi Gras Madness and bus stop questions? Huh? - 3/5/2005

I went to Mardi Gras in Sydney tonight.... it was crazy.... I can't believe just the sheer masses of people that were there.... not to mention the parade! The costumes, the choreography, the sequins, the glitter, the witty political messages, the bravery and the absurdity.... it was awesome. Just being in such a huge crowd is an experience in itself. The crowd has such an energy and is exciting and almost scary in one way.

There was a few great "images" of the night that I will try and describe:

1. On my way back to the city to catch a bus, there was a mini whirlwind which picked up all this rubbish and glitter and was blowing it around in a mini-tornado spiral.... standing in the middle of the spiral were two police officers. I wish I had my camera, it was such a great image, and it summed up the chaos of the night, with the police just observing.... it was a great image, the police inside a mini whirlwind while masses of people walked around them.... making a bigger whirlwind.

2. Another one was a policeman on the beat filming the parade on a camcorder. For me that was great.... he was obviously enjoying himself and the event and it was so refreshing compared to the attitude that the police force in my home town have.

3. A guy on a roof mooning the hundreds of thousands of people on Oxford St with his friends cheering on.... there was just such an irony to it, because how many bare asses did we see in the parade itself?

Anyway, on my way home, a funny thing happened at the bus stop. Something quite strange.

>I was waiting at the bus stop to come home from Mardi Gras and then this guy came up and asked me for the time.... so I showed him my watch.... then he started chatting to me, saying that he thought I was pretty, and then he said he would like to meet for coffee or something and asked for my number.... I was kinda shocked and gave it to him.....

This is the first time I seriously ever have been chatted up by someone who was sober and seemed relatively normal.... but there was something so smooth about the way he got my phone number it almost seemed strange.... but then I'm not sure if it's just me being overly suspicious or whether it is my self conciousness telling myself that I am not good enough to be "picked up".... also he seemed a fair bit older than me, probably about 5 or 6 years.....

If he calls I guess I will go for coffee and find out more about him.... intelligent conversation and someone who doesn't take themselves too seriously is the main things I find attractive so I guess we will see what his personality is like.

But do you think this is a bit odd? Or is it just because I have never had this happen before? Am I over analyzing this? (Actually, I can answer this myself..... yes I probably am overanalyzing, it is a forte of mine)
>
>I t was just such a surreal night.....mardi gras magic I guess!

<-------------------- -------------------- -------------------- ---------------yea i know what u mean...well see my bf hes a big stoner and well it kinda sucks but.....i mean i do amit i did do it before but i dont do it anymore so [baby_gurl0000]-------------------- -------------------- -------------------- ---------------ryn: you MUST try those tim tams... i thought they would be really weird but they are delicious!!! mmm...chilli...[Sezura]-------------------- -------------------- -------------------- ---------------Thank you for your visit and your nice note.I envy you the experience of visiting Vietnam; would love to go there sometime.Is it Mardi Gras time again in Sydney? I hadn't seen it on tv. Have never been but a friend and his mates went several years ago and loved it. I'm smiling at the niote above; have very recently tried those chilli Timtams and thought they were really nice. [Arbi]-------------------- -------------------- -------------------- ---------------thanks for the notethe whirlwind/police scenario that you mentioned sounded amazing. i can picture it my head like i'm actually there, 10 feet away, watching it all happen head on. it's beauitful. a visual picture would be wonderful, but sometimes words portray the details; and that can be so much better... amazing. [sourspunk]-------------------- -------------------- -------------------- ---------------Wow, sounds like you have a pretty crazy life. I'm just a random noter in case you were wondering. Drop by sometime! [Special-K]-------------------- -------------------- -------------------- ---------------Soundtrack of my Life - 3/7/2005

I got this little quiz sent to me and I thought it was pretty cool.... basically you pick the songs to make the soundtrack of your life.... or what songs would be in the background if your life was a movie. Anyway, here are mine:

opening credits - Fast as you Can by Fiona Apple
waking-up scene - Bring me to Life by Evanesence
average-day scene - Will You be my Girl? by Jet
best friend scene - Everywhere by Michelle Branch
falling-in-love scene - Even When I'm Sleeping by Leonardo's Bride
love scene - She's so High by Tal Bachman
fight-with-friend scene - iieeee by Tori Amos
break-up scene - Look What You've Done by Jet
get-back-together scene - Miss You Love by Silverchair
group of friends scene - Do Your Thing by Basement Jaxx
heartbreak scene - The Special Two by Missy Higgins
mental-breakdown scene - Colorblind by Counting Crows

nightclu b/bar scene - Hey Mama by Black Eyed Peas
hot sex scene - umm... Figured you Out by Nikelback (don't have much of this "genre" of music LOL)
making love scene (there's a difference) - Kissing You by Desiree (from R&J)

fight-with-si gnificant other scene - Clocks by Coldplay
lesson-learning scene - They Weren't There by Missy Higgins
bitter, angry scene - Anna's Song by Silverchair
regret scene - Let me Fall from Cirque du Soleil's Quidam
high school / flashback scene - Time of Your Life by Greenday
party scene - Crazy in Love by Beyonce or Hey Ya by Outkast
dance scene - Some Bollywood music lol (just something totally crazy and with a great beat... I will dance to anything!)
spiritual scene - There wouldn't really be a spiritual scene in a movie about me
long-night-alone scene - London Still by The Waifs
death scene - Hear You Me by Johnny Eat World

funeral scene - Arms of an Angel by Sarah McLachlan
closing credits -ummm.... no idea... Scar by Missy Higgins maybe?

This was a pretty fun survey.... I don't really have a lot of music to pick from at the moment though, I have more at home.

Update on bus stop guy.... he called me, and conversation didn't really flow or anything so I have decided not to go down the path of meeting up with him... plus I have safety concerns etc and he seems a fair bit older than me. So yeah.

Other than that, I have no other news/info/goss/anyth ing.

-------------------- -------------------- -------------------- ---------------I love this, this is great- I might steal it. ;) ~Audra [the_perfect_shell]-------------------- -------------------- -------------------- ---------------Thanks for the note! I appreciated it! ;) [lovedbysomeone925]-------------------- -------------------- -------------------- ---------------Wow. I know hardly any of those songs.. Was Green Day's Time Of Your Life your Year 12 song too? I'm guessing it was for many people. They played it at the end of the graduation ceremony. We had a choice between that and some other crappy song. Time Of Your Life had the most votes.I love that song, always have, even before it was the year 12 song. [i.wanna.be.sedated]-------------------- -------------------- -------------------- ---------------RYN: 7 interviews in a week? That's crazy stuff! I guess I have two advantages, a)I'm not actually in the city, the city's abit far to travel everyday just to work a casual/part-time job! b)I have a job at the moment, would just like to go somewhere else.. Anyway, goodluck finding yourself a job.. Hope it doesn't take much longer! [i.wanna.be.sedated]-------------------- -------------------- -------------------- ---------------HelloI am just a random noter and coincidently from Sydney aswell, u seem to have a hektik but interesting life, its great!Your journal is interesting and i have to admit, i wouldn't know so many songs off the top of my head, aswell as the singers lolHav a good one xox [lozagal]-------------------- -------------------- -------------------- ---------------