I am so stressed.... I sent an email to the exchange officer, and I wondered if she could ask if I had even met the entrance requirements for the uni. I just had this horrible thought of what if I get rejected... I have been planning and saving for this for a year, what if I get rejected?

Now I have that same terrible terrible feeling that I had when I was waiting for my HSC results. I don't know where I am going, or what I am doing next year. And what happens if I get rejected? I remember how horrible I felt when I didn't get the mark I wanted in the HSC, even though I got in to the course I wanted to get in to. If my exchange doesn't get accepted, that is it... I won't have anything to look forward to for next year anymore.

Now I have been struck by this huge fear of rejection and my stomach is in knots and I feel sick. And I have several more fucking advertorials to write.

Argh three more hours until 5pm. I feel physically ill now, I have a headache, I'm tired and I am just so worried that my exchange will be rejected... I think I have had these thoughts in the back of my mind for ages, but I only today just thought about how upset I will be if it doesn't work out, I have had my heart set on this all year.